Caution: This post might be super emotional and sad.
I love weddings. Even outdoor weddings in the heat and humidity. I had the honor of being my best friend's personal attendant in her wedding on Sunday. I pretty much was in charge of whatever she wanted, whatever errands her and her mother asked of me, and taking care of her daughter- who is also my godchild. It was amazing. I am sore today but it was worth it completely. It was a beautiful wedding. My best friend got to marry her best friend... there was friends and family and cake and dancing.
But it kinda makes me sad. Every time I go to a wedding, I end up crying. Partly cause it's just so darn cute. When they say their vows?! It's so super cute. They are standing up in front of all their friends, family, pastor and God and declaring that they love this person so much, they are going to vow to be with them for the rest of their breathing days. They are going to be with each other through sickness and health. And no matter what happens, they will still love each other. And that first dance... It's pretty much the first minutes they have alone as a married couple. I have always wondered what secret words they say to each other, as they are finally away from hearing ears. Are they whispering about how amazing they look? How happy they are that they are finally promised to each other forever? That "mine" is legally true? Or are they whispering about how they wish this was all over? Or did you see Aunt Jo drop her roll? Le sigh.
Partly because I feel like maybe it won't ever be my turn. That I will never find a man that wants to spend the rest of his life with me. That I won't find a man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. That I am bound to be an crazy cat lady. Cause you know if I end up being an old maid... I am going to be a crazy cat lady.
Ok. I am done being sorry for myself.
Ash-a-ley and Devin. If either of you are reading this: I love you both. Mostly cause I love Ash and she loves Dev so I suppose I should be nice to him :P Congrats on your marriage and I wish you many many happy years together <3 <3 <3
Monday, June 6, 2011
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ha, i was working on my own blog, which you inspired me to start actually and spied your post. ya know, i feel the whole wedding thing, weddings are beautiful. they are boring to me, or course, but i can't help but cry especially at the vows. does that make me a big wuss that should fisted by a man who's getting his butt shaved by another man? idk. i've been around a lot of weddings and my fav part is just like the whole concept in general. the two families are getting together celebrating the union of two people and they are enjoying each others company on a joyous day that deserves one of the most elaborate if not the most elaborate celebration of society. Families coming together and getting along to support two people and rocking the house to white wedding, yeah its hot.
as for you being a crazy cat lady, yeah i can totally see that. no doubt in my mind you can wind up to be that lady in the simpsons who can't even mumble a coherent word and throws cats at inanimate objects cause shes lost her marbles. funny, cause chances are your not gonna be that lady. everything works out, and i think everything is going to work out just fine for you. you know? just fine :)
Aww thanks! Good luck on your own blogging! It is one of my favorite things. It helps me relax and vent so much. Lol.
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