Grief

I know that it has been a long time since I have actually posted. But I need to let something out.


Something happened ot me on Monday and I feel like my whole world tilted wrong. Like all of the sudden if I made one wrong move I was going to topple off. I can't tell you what it is to protect the privacy of the people involved.. but lets just say that I am sad. I feel alone. I feel guilty. I know there was nothing I could have done... I am sorry for being so cryptic but it's the way it has to be.

It made me think about emotions really. How so often I lie to myself about how I feel and stuff. And how am I supposed to write in this blog about how I feel if I don't even let people know the truth about how I feel? How am I supposed to expect peopel to help me if they don't know what I am feeling?

Whoops.

Ah.

Hello Readers. Have you forgotten about me? Have you been wondering if I had forgotten about you? Well I haven't. I have just been very busy. And stressed. But mostly happy. I would like to say.

I got promoted at work. I am now a business coordinator. I don't telemarket anymore. I send out contracts and do the data entry side of things now. It's a temporary position and I pray to God that I get to keep it. I love it so much. I mean... if I had to do the phone calls again I would deal with it. But I really like what I am doing now. I enjoy it so much. It is more work but less stress if that makes any sense. So pray that I get to keep doing this.


I have been having some car trouble which leads to some financial struggling. Ok so a lot. Not to mention, I put my rent money on the table and now its GONE. And the lady I am staying with super needs that moeny but I don't have the money to just re give it to her...:"(

I am still going to my church. I still love them.

Well.. I don't have too much really to say. It's been a lot of the same ol' same ol' lately :P